Have been busy for most of the weekends, shopping, spring cleaning around the house, resting, working…. Seems to have so much to do and so little time now. For I am such a last minute person, still not able to do proper time management. Sad.

About Seth
Toddlerhood has been challenging. He shows his temperament, he speaks his mind, learns really quick, be it bad or good habits. At a stage, he can be such a good boy a day, the next day, he wants to get what he wants and relentless till he gets them. We can pull all our hair out and he still insist to have it his way. Coaxing, scolding, all we’ve tried….. indeed challenging. We have to be really patience and stick to a routine for him. No matter how tired I may be, I would stick to the regular routine of getting him to brush his teeth, clean his face, morning, night, nap when we are at home. Cos if he didn’t get his deserving rest, we get our deserving tantrums from Seth. As usual, he will make us melt with his awesome silly smile and laughters, calling sweetly, “Daddy, Mommy”. Showing us his funny expressions. Singing to us, “I love you, you love me…….”. Lately, we have been coaxing him to let his mei mei sleep in his baby cot, and he to co-sleep with daddy on the floor mattress. He keeps refusing and end up, for two nights now, he wants to sleep in the baby cot and not move to our queen size bed (which he normally do) It’s amusing to see him getting so territorial. WE’ll try harder nonetheless.

About Grace/RuiEn
This little princess, is getting so big! She is approximately 2.4kg now… 4 more weeks to go. Definitely, active in my womb, as she kicks and moves a lot in the day and nights. The good part of it, she doesn’t wake me up so often in the night, except for my peeing time, when I feel the pressure on my bladder. So I would visit the toilet, 2-3 times a night. Better than the days when I am carrying Seth in my womb, which I wake up so often. Grace is in this position now that I can feel she’s drilling into my pelvic area, moving, so it gets uncomfortable to sit for too long, esp. in the office. I can stand up and work, it looks weird but I’ve got no choice…. Else I would feel that I am restricting her movement, or I might have caused her discomfort if I sit for too long.

I’ve bought quite a few of her new clothings….shopping to my delight. Can’t imagine when she’s out of my womb, I would buy even more! We’ll be seeing our gyynae again this Friday. I always look forward to the U/S scan. seeing her, chubby. Lots of people I’ve met kept telling me I look really heavy, sad lor but no choice lar. My tummy is like a big big balloon. Even my boss said he worried I may pop anytime now, which of course, I do not wish too and my prayers is to deliver in 40 weeks gestation! So God’s timing it will be! I would miss being pregnant. I am not sure if we are going to go for no. 3 but it’s a mixed feeling at this stage, to be immersed in being pregnant, enjoy some special treatment at home and at work, or can’t wait to see Grace face to face, hold her tiny hands and caress her hair.

Things to do for the next 4 weeks,
1. Pack my hospital bag
2. Wash all the baby’s clothes
3. Clean the kitchen, sterilise the baby bottles, breast pumps what have we?
4. Last minute shopping, if I can manage……

On Work
Yes, 4 more weeks and loads of works to do! I can’t clear my paperwork, I get so panicky. I rely on God’s strength to go by everyday. If not for Him, i would have given up. But I know I have to face my giants and just do whatever I can. My colleague left last friday. So now I am on my own. My covering would be my boss, which I am worry as I hope he is not so badly overloaded as he has his fair share of work to cover as well. URRRGH!!! I do not want to be soaking in incompetency and Just hope that the day will be productive so I can clear as much as I can. Have been working till 7yish 8 on some days. On days that I need to go for meetings, I would work off-site, you would probably see me hang at Starbucks, vivo. What to do, cheapskate having free wireless and a cuppa. One -ve is no power point. So I would full charge my laptop and work till it drained, say 2 hours?? At days, when I feel unwell, giddy spells, I would still drag myself to work, cos I can’t afford a day not to step into office to clear stuffs. Lately, I’ve have so much requests for quotations and blah blah blah, quote till I almost faint! From yesterday onwards, I would keep my boss in the loop for all I’ve quoted so that if I really need to go on mc, which I don’t want to, he will know what to cover me. No choice, I guess.

Alrighty, preparing to go to office already. Start of a day, with God’s grace and favours!

Seth: {Scratching his buttocks…}
Seth: “Jia Lat… Pain Pain.”
Me: {Shocked and rolling my eyes! (What have he been learning??)}

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For the past week or so, I’ve been spending time scrapbooking or if not, with Seth. To me, it’s precious time to capture his everyday’s life and speech which always brings smiles and surprises. He has grown so much! Especially when I see his younger days photos. These days, he speaks so much more and learn to pretend play a lot. He is able to think and construct simple sentences. eg. “mommy, take horse horse.” (his rocking horse from the room), “daddy, buy bread.”

Just yesterday, he starts to tell me, “I love love mommy.” AWE!! That truly touches me! It is tough to leave him to even go back to work. Oh btw, I am on leave again. I guess I needed the rest and also have been feeling quite a fair bit of tightening in tummy area. This pregnancy, I become so much sensitive compared to preggy with Seth. Hope I do get much better physically and mentally soon. I have to say that Seth’s really a darling when it comes to loving us, he is not afraid to show his simple affection, I always like the way he cuddle my hands, in car, on bed, as he is about to sleep. In a lot of ways, we kinda of put him to such a position that it means, “we are spoiling him!!” Nonetheless, we will also discipline him at the moment he commit his mischief.

Somehow, I kinda of worry that we could have neglected baby Rui En. Comparing to my 1st pregnancy, Olive Tree was much more caring and proactive in the preggy process. But for this pregnancy, he seems to be totally oblivious. I was thinking back, how he has behaved when it was our firstborn. Sorry for comparing, but I think I felt neglected for this pregnancy. I neglect, and likewise, the daddy as well. So in a way, it’s kinda of unfair for baby Rui En. She’s actually very sweet and active in my womb. I enjoy the kicks she does inside. Whenever, I see the U/S scan, seeing her face always bring bright smiles to me, as to me, she’s such a dearie beauty. I wish that I have all the time to nurture the little one and be rid of any stress that I am currently going through, be it at work, at home. I felt the worry freak in me being so hard to tame. Sometimes, so sick that I think to much, but is that the preggy hormones at work? My prayers always goes to having a happy baby, always smily and enjoying the life’s moments. Intelligent and healthy. I prayed the same for both of our kids and God’s grace and faithfulness always prevails. Yes, maybe now I am so sensitive and touchy but I hope the wild imagination of mine about how Olive Tree is treating me will not be blurring my mind too much so that I continue to feel loved. Insecurity??

Oh, and the nonsense I am spouting here, do bear with me, cause I have no avenue to vent them out except on my own blog. hee…. have a great week ahead. Be blessed with little things in life.

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