Creativity in a purpose driven life

Bad Night

as i chased Seth out of the room and brought him over to my mom's room to put him in Sarong Swing to sleep. He has been crying none stop for half an hour and nothing pacify him. I am stressed out that he kept crying just felt so frustrated and couldn't help not to shout at him. Yes, I am not a good parent. But I can't manage the stress that I am going through..... So Seth went to sleep with my mom, which is better, and end up, I can't sleep! Ok, I need the energy to brave through the days to complete the very impending tasks and daily getting chased by clients to do INVOICING!!! DAMN! Even work till late evening can't complete my tasks, so how incompetent I am? Thanks to Jen who is there to lend the listening ears and comforted me. I really need to rest. For the no. 2 and myself. I neglected the no. 1 and no. 2, still not a good parent. How can I be?

Sharing with Cousin

Cousins in Sharing

This was taken at Kluang. In the hotel room, Seth and Jurnus sharing the biscuits. So cute and sweet to share the biscuits. 🙂

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Another one here, Jack and the 2 kiddos. Playing outside the Restaurant where the dinner is held. I like these photoes lats as they captured the fun moments and Jack trying to balance the both of them. I am pissed but am getting over it now. All I can blame is, the idiotic CO and OC. What the #!(% to have made Olive Tree so darn tired and then going to be staying in for the whole 2 weeks and counting. What welfare for married and NSMen with kids......all full of bullshit! Poor Seth, cried for half an hour looking for his daddy. I feel hopeless. 🙁

Panic Attack

This weekend wasn't very pleasant for me. Too eventful and heart attacks happenings.

We were at Kluang for Jon's and Marg Wedding Dinner yesterday. In the morning, Seth broke my glasses, I got splinter as long as 2 cm went through my thumb. Fuming hot with such a bad happening. Of course, I would not want this to spoil the happy occasion of my bro's wedding. Trip went pretty ok. I was the photographer for them for the day and night. Captured many shots. Some which I was pretty pleased with. Though tiring but it's fruitful and things for them went on quite smoothly. When dinner was about to finish, and they went round to toast to the relatives, I was taking the photoes. Darn at the moment, my digital camera reflect ERR 02! I was in shocked! I saw the flash and then I off the digital camera again. Total horror, the displayed shown "ERR CF" I almost fainted and my face in total dejection. I told my eldest bro, Jack and his face, "went crooked"!!! OH MANZ! It's the worse that can happen! I can't sleep last night. I don't know how to face Jon and Marg. I wanted to tell them very sorry and being truthful about it but so worried! End of the dinner, Jon even said "thank you" which made me feel even worst!

With sleepless night, I have to woke up at 6plus to get ready to return SG as Jack's eldest boy has swimming class. So we took off at 8.30am. Hoping to reach SG in time (11am) for Joel's class. Almost halfway through the journey, Jack asked me, "where's your passports?" I exclaimed!! "OH NO!! Then said, it's in my handbag. I opened up and realised, no passports! OH another shit. This time round really makes my heart boils and screaming!!! Marg told me that the passports were placed in my handbag when I asked her on Saturday. So being assuming, I didn't check before I left hotel and now, no passports! We end up, driving back and have to meet Jon and Marg at Kluang's Toll to get our passports. URRRGH! How terrible can it be??

The only comforting words are, my family didn't blame me for the detour. Even that it caused Joel to be late for his lesson. Comforting as well, as Olive Tree will be back in the day, and I can see him. Comforting again, that I manage to search through the internet and found the software to rescue my corrupted files! though some are corrupted but the main files are recovered. Price to paid US29... but what to do, it's always like that when it comes to digital photography!

Can’t Sleep

Woke up at 2.45am due to Seth's crying. Thereafter, he would cry in intervals of 10 mins or such. aiyo. End up, can't sleep and surf the net doing this and this. Downloaded a few softwares for my E61. Have been so under utilising it. I guess by now, I am pleased with one think on my E61 is I can get Windows Live Messenger to work and do IM! YEH! I need to really sleep now as tomorrow gonna be a long day for me. 😀 Since I am trying to be the photographer! Oh and before I go, I went for my check up to day at my gynae's. 😀 BB is now 73mm in length. All is good and really active too. 🙂 Bouncing and all, Detailed scan will be done on 20th April. Adrian to me to discuss with Ed is to do the Maternal Serum Screen (Something like that lar). If need to I have to do the test in 15-16weeks. Mood: Happy and Excited! 😀 ??

Rainy days


Woke up a sleepy head. Such a cooling weather, rain spattering on the ground and I so wanna stay home to laze and not to work. Flu starts to come back again, whole night blocked nose and slept with the tissue inserted up my nostril!! URRGH! To clear the blcok nose and running tape of mucus. YUPZ Gross am I?

Olive Tree came back late last night. In fact, I was so overjoyed till he said he may not come back cause of one stupid NSMan went home attend C and forgot to return his weapon to the store. So all have to wait for the guy to go back camp and return the weapon and then book out! Super rigid and due to one fellow! Olive Tree managed to come home half past midnight. At least, I get to see him for that few hours before he left for camp again at 6 this morning. Otherwise, this whole week I will not bee seeing him! Not use to it lar....

Another 2 more work days to go, torture. Why now I find it's totally torture to step into office? As I have to be so desk bound and clear all the paperworks. Also, rushing madly, and the micro-management. The f-up comms and the loads of s*#@. See, I am in a bad mood. 🙁

Stop my lamenting and got to go work lioa. Thanks gals, for being here and reading my lamentation! 😉